Sitting on my bed,
45° degrees angle from the door,
Somewhere in Africa.
22.01.2019
Dear God,
The Struggles of a Young, Christian lady
How it all started: The Beginning
Has it ever happened to you, that you will like to chat with someone but you have nothing to say.. So you just have to waka pass??🚶
God, please help me, you have helped me but you know me na, Human being 101, I am still learning to be like you, perfect.. And it's more awkward, I mean, I try to gist with the person but he's always tired or claims to be tired..
And I am like, but you gist with other people, why is my own now different?🤷
You know when you just wish to be friends with someone but you don't know the ice-breaker.
I think the worse is when you actually converse everyday but you don't talk..
In this one, the person just has to reach out to you, because even if you reach out, it won't do or produce much...
God, have you ever felt like this?😞 (Psalm 53:2)
The Conversations
If you have, it must be painful and wearisome but God, so many people know you.. But come to think of it, why in that chapter were you looking for just one person and you didn't find? (Ezekiel 22:30)
Aren't people as close to you as they present to us? Or are you also lacking friends or a friend?
God, if you are lacking a friend, please, let me be your friend and you be mine. Teach me how to be your friend. (Isaiah 54:13)
Let the Bible become interesting to me that I never want to leave your presence...
Do you know what we discussed at ZOE yesterday, we discussed how to know a person better, something like that and Wunmi said, most times, people don't get to know her because they don't pay attention and they make assumptions.
Is that how we treat you, is that how I treat you? If that's how I treat you, I am sorry..😣 Really sorry...😭
Fears & Weaknesses
I guess because you have been painted to me as a Big God, so even when I call you my friend, I have it at the back of my mind that you are someone bigger than me, that can change it for me😡 at any time, if I mess up and I also get scared of overfamiliarity.
You know they say,“Overfamiliarity breeds contempt”, I want to be friends with you but I don't want to disrespect you or make you angry or disappoint you, or make you feel sad.
I can be very annoying, selfish, but you know when I love, I love and I really want us to be friends, irrespective of what our relationship has been in the past up till now.
God, if you feel half of all these feelings I feel, please do let me know..😯 So, I know I am not the only one in this, (you see what I was saying, Selfishness)
Please God, I know you can't behold sin and I also know Jesus has made me holy, but truly, I still don't understand how it works..🤔
You know now, with different teachings, I just stick with what I have known, at least it has helped me this far, although, I know it's simply by your mercy.🙏 (Romans 9:16)
God, I really hope we can be friends, It would be cool and I definitely don't want a one-sided relationship, it sucks🤕 and you know it, so, please help me.
Let's plan this...
Ways to get closer to God
When people want to get close to each other, they spend time together, opening themselves up, not hiding anything. (James 4:8)
I know I have the Bible, but this time around, I want to read it and see, hear you talking to me.
I am tired of reading the Bible and then, wondering who I offended😥 especially when I land on those judgemental verses...
So, from today, you know me better than I know myself,
1. When do you think is the best time for us to chat?
Plus, God, I read singing is a protocol to enter your presence (Psalm 100:4),
2. Must I always sing, I get tired of singing sometimes, especially if I am just waking up or I am really tired or I am just not in the mood to sing?
So, how do we go about that one?
3. How can I pay attention to you and not make assumptions rather, in how many ways have I made assumptions that just broke your heart and you were like I thought she knew me better than this?
4. I read yesterday in Mike Murdock's mentorship program book that you get angry when people don't believe your words and you get happy when people trust and believe your word, is that true? (Hebrews 11:6)
If yes, then, from now, please help me (Philippians 4:13), I will never doubt your words, whether they make sense or not. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
God, I believe we would make the best duo or quadruplets, I mean You, Jesus, The Holy Spirit and Me.
Final prayer
God, please help me be a good friend to you, please show me ways to be a good friend to you in Jesus name.. and help me do those things, so that,
1. I can make you happy,
2. I will be happy and fulfilled and
3. Just like Enoch, we will walk together consistently till Death brings us together...
Warm regards,
From your new found friend😍,
Miss Deborah U👸.
Word for Today:
“From heaven, God looks down to see if anyone is wise enough to search for him.” Psalm 53:2, Contemporary English Version
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I pray we all live in divine health, prosperity and abide in a greater understanding of God’s love for us, to see more of these posts this year and I pray it blesses your heart, keeps you strong, encourages you, so you know you are not alone in your struggles.. Grace & Peace... Shalom!
