The worse part is, you know when you are angry and you know you can do something about it but you just let it fester.
The annoying part is Anger does not come alone, it carries along Pride, Assumptions (most times, they are wrong), Judgemental attitude, Blindspots, Self-pity.
The funny thing is when you are angry, you never see your faults in full light, only the faults of the person that annoyed you.
The mystery of Anger is you wrap yourself in that deep pain, and it feels like you will never come out of it. You feel like you are the only one that is hurt. You don't see your own contribution to the matter.
The sad part is you hurt the people you don't want to hurt, drive away the ones that should be there to help you. You enter this cocoon filled with webs of lies, blinding you from seeing the light, tangling you so, that even when you see the light, you feel stuck and then you lose hope and sink deeper and deeper into misery.
One thing with Anger is, you are not free, you are not happy. It takes away your joy, your happiness, your sanity, your morals, it strips you and leaves you bare and vulnerable to every attack from the devil, whether you believe it or not.
Now, I understand why God did not allow Moses enter the promised land, or why Jesus said, "Anyone given to anger is capable of murder"..
When you are angry, you think evil thoughts and your defense: spiritually, emotionally, physically, even health wise is down.
With the kind of punishment that God gave Moses due to his anger, he could never be angry till his death. Anger is so deadly, really, it is a death trap.
When you are angry, reasoning flies out the window, it's only the grace and mercy of God that can deliver you. And because, you don't think while you are angry, you are capable of carrying out any form of evil.
NLT:An angry person starts fights; a hot-tempered person commits all kinds of sin. Proverbs 29:22
Anger is an emotion so strong, it takes the grace of God to deliver one from its power. Come to think of it, how do you correlate a man with a record of being the meekest man on earth, to be the same man with severe anger issues?
No one is immune to this spirit called Anger, it is only the Grace and Mercy of God that delivers us all..Only through dependence on God, can we find liberty and deliverance from this destructive spirit.
If you have found yourself getting angry of late or one day out of the blues, you just exploded and everyone was wondering what's wrong with you or You have a full time record of getting angry, then, "Ask the Lord for his help, ask him to have mercy on you. Tell him to show you the way out. Ask him to deliver you from this web of destruction you have found yourself in. Ask him to hold your hands and lead you out of this dark tunnel, because you can't do it on your own. Begin to thank him for answers to your prayers."
One final thing: God will help you but the onus still lies on you, Will you help yourself out? When he tells you to go and talk with that person that hurt you, to iron things out, You better go.. Don't procastinate. Don't assume things will only get worse. You have prayed, now rely on his grace and strength to help you through.
God bless you.
